Tuesday, July 24, 2007

This New Darkness

Like a tuning orchestra the meriad of lights point in nearly random, mostly meaningless directions only ocasionally pointing in the direction of the darkness. Sparks fly from occasional convergence of light from one sect of reality or another, but for the most part nothing more than an ambient glow is produced.


The dying sun's light whithers and soon like a snuffed flame is extinguished. The chorus of individual lights not resolute to point to any specific thing is not intense enough to replace the fading light. Then, one by one the individual lights at the fringes of existence go out. Unity emerges as darkness.


This new darkness, deliberate and intense, is purposeful--a willful rebellion against chaotic sameness of the preceding illumination. The darkness, homogeneous, spreads over the face of existence.


All is dark, silent.


And then, all at once there is light. The light of the Other fills the universe with His vast light, and rekindles the dying fire. The orchestra fully tuned is ready. He conducts.

8 comments:

MICKY said...

Greetings Benjamin
How are you FEELING, "young man"? I imagine you have been stirred up with all the INTIMACY you have been having. Whatever you are FEELING, Benny, your process is not about me, but unprocessed STUFF from your childhood. Did you ever find that POST (Why did you delete it) [WINK] [WINK]. You are such a CONTROL FREAK, Ben? Do you think that Jesus was a CONTROL FREAK, Benny? Why did Jesus speak in PARABLES? I LOVE you, Benjamin! Do you LOVE me? How do you FEEL, Ben? Are you feeling, FEAR?
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (NIV)
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

I imagine poor old Benjamin is frothing at the mouth (TERROR) because he can't face his DEMONS? What about you, Jordon, have you faced your DEMONS? Have you been through THE LONG DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL?

Jordan (w.m.s.n.b.s.) said...

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, [a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

AUSSIE said...

SAVED BY GRACE
About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow [Holy Spirit], I reached out to a friend who took me to hospital. I had three visits [hospital] in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagine I was going through some sort of metamorphosis [mental, physical & spiritual]. I had been seeing a therapist [1994] on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive [I had no control over my process]. I was released from hospital 16th September 2004, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up [home] & my process would start up again [fear, pain, & shame]. No one could help me, not even my therapist [I was terrified]. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me & forgive me my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated & I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic & the Holy Spirit is my friend & strength; every day since then has been a joy & blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my inequities. John 3: 8, John 15: 26, are verses I can relate to, organically. He’s a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy & peace in my life, today, after a childhood spent in orphanages . God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, & shame, are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you [Luke 8: 16 – 17].
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

Jordan (w.m.s.n.b.s.) said...

"Some have wandered away from these and turned to meaningless talk" 1 Timothy 1:5-7

AUSSIE said...

Jordon Said:
I am a Christian. I can be friendly at times and stoic at others (usually when I am deep in thought). I communicate best through the written word. And what I write is usually from my heart in the truest sence. The more I grow, the more I reinvent myself, making anything else I write here irrelevent.

Greetings Jordon
When thought realises that whatever it does any movement that it makes is disorder, then there is silence. I imagine you an emotionally shut down LITTLE BOY who has escaped into his head. Were you abused as a child (Religious abuse)? The only way you will RECOVER is for you to go back to the CHAMBER OF HORRORS (your childhood) and recover LITTLE JORDON - you abandoned him a long time ago. Are you a ZOMBIE, Jordon? I love you JORDON! Do you love me?
Are you in hell? How do you FEEL, Jordon? I imagine you are TERRIFIED
LITTLE BOY - poor little Jordon!! Do you want your MUMMY, Jordy Boy?
You are of your father the devil, and your will is to do your father's desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks out of his own character, for he is a liar and the father of lies [John 8:44].

AUSSIE said...

When you are aware of your conditioning, actually, not theoretically, all effort ceases. Any effort to be something is the beginning of another conditioning. are you aware of your conditioning, Jordon? Is Benjamin?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY

Jordan (w.m.s.n.b.s.) said...

I love you too, Micky.

MICKY said...

Jordan (w.m.s.n.b.s.) said...
I love you too, Micky.

Greetings Jordon
Thank you for opening your heart to me, Jordon. That is what Jesus is all about - to love one another, as Jesus loved us. May God remember you in His Kingdom?
PEACE BE WITH YOU
MICKY